| xangaaaaa i'm back. how are you? i'm alright. i'm in connecticut. i'm clean. i'm clear. no i'm not but i'm def. clean. getting my shit together. missing my best friends. |
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| SO YOU GUYS.
hey. it's been three nights now since i've slept.
i miss becca terribly.
i feel so worthless without her. she's everything i'm not...so it's like...without her, i'm not a whole. i'm just an erica. without a becca to complete me. all of my short-comings feel so exposed and i'm just vulnerable. come back to me my love. let's go to the trolleywood.
leaving leaving leaving leaving i hate that i'm leaving. i hate that it's the right thing to do.
it feels like i'm betraying everybody i've loved..but i know if i keep doing what i'm doing here i'll end up dead. nowhere. wasted.
i just hallucinated.
a demon just walked through the door with a glass of water.
see i need my perscriptions and i need to go. |
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| i'm tired of nonsense.
i finally have a phone.
ask me for the number
arrangements are being made for "the move"
yes, it's really happening.
it's about time i took a real risk. i was getting tired of these small town chances.
i can honestly say i won't miss many people
if that's not too bitter of me to say.
anyone i will miss, i miss already.
i'll write a book about this town one day.
i can assure you. keep an eye out for it.
goodbye trees. =D |
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| NINE ways to win my heart:
09. be different
08. be cute
07. and sweet
06. sunkist
05. watch movies with me
04. let me be weird. that's me.
03. be lazy with me all day
02. act silly with me
01. hand sex
EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
08. be a rock climber
07. and a volcanologist
06. create a library of my books.
05. study the sky in an observatory
04. create a masterpiece
03. cross a desert
02. and a rainforest
01. change the world
SEVEN THINGS that annoy me:
07. one-track minds
06. belligerant drunks
05. dirty feet
04. me.
03. morons
02. nascar
01. the smacking sound people make when they eat.
SIX things I believe (in):
06. myself
05. my friends
04. my intellect
03. second chances
02. third and fourth chances
01. shifting space/time continuums-alternate realities/universes.
FIVE things I'm afraid of:
05. rejection
04. peanut butter
03. spiders
02. the dark
01. the past
FOUR of my favorite things:
04. my friends
03. my books
02. my braiiinnnn
01. theology
THREE things I do everyday:
03. smile because everything will be okay.
02. think
01. something to make myself look really stupid
TWO things I want to do right now:
02. drink
01. go somewhere with people whos company i enjoy.
ONE person I want to see right now:
01. jeff =D happy birfday tehe and becca and charlie.
and mark maybe.
but mostly the first 3 |
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